I awoke to find my stupid jeans had made all of her lovely white
clothes streaky dark purple today – my 3 favourite outfits too
– her bee one and 2 other white winny the poo ones! I’d
washed the jeans before so was so mad. Her bright yellows are poo
brown/orange, and her whites a horrible dirty purple streaked colour.
I was mad for hours - this was the last straw I just felt so stressed
with everything overwhelming me - I was teary all day and decided
to declutter my life and home and really decide what is important.
I was dying for her to go to sleep so I could have a goo dcry and
get over it, but she didn't sleep all damn day. I'd had a quick 1/2
hour sleep with her at about 9am ish, and then had bathed and massaged
her. I'd then made lunch during another 1/2 hour nap at about 11 am.
That was then it. I needed to go to Mark's work for a function in
the evening and had to leave at 4pm, so waited all day for her to
sleep so I couldn't get ready and pack her things - but to no avail.
Eventually she started screaming, and I had to just get organised
with her on my arm. She got so hot from screaming, but still showed
37.5 on the thermometre. She then needed to feed at 4pm, then pooed
and needed changing, so then ended up screaming again, so needed more
feeding. Eventually over half an hour late, she was calm enough to
put her in the car. She fell asleep for 1/2 hour of the 40 minute
journey, and woke unhappily when we got there. After about 1/2 hour
of being distracted she began to cry again, and no amount of changing,
rocking or boob would put her to sleep or make her happy so we had
to say our goodbyes. She then fell asleep in the car shortly before
arriving home after spending most of the journey trying to suck her
thumbs (I began by pulling them away each time she managed, but she
ended up being so tired and unco, that she wasn't able to get hold
of them for long anyway. I finally managed to get her to sleep again
at 9pm. We got a good 4 1/2 hour first stint from her.
Her current pattern had been a good long sleep of 4 1/2 to 5 1/2 hours first thing in the night, then another sleep till about 3pm, then a wake every hour or 1 1/2 hours until 6am, when it's up to ply intil another 1/2 hour or 1 hour nap at about 8 - 8.30ish. Then either more playing before a 1 1/2 - 2 1/2 hour nap mid afternoon and another nap 4-5ish for an hour or so, so else a wakeful feeding day with possibly 2-3 short 1/2 hour naps somewhere along the line adn then conking out for the night between 6-8pm.
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